Being an in-betweener

When I finished university at the end of 2019 I planned to take some time off, little did I know that that period of “time off” would turn into almost 2 years.
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I had grand plans to get a job and make change in my chose industry, I had complete a Masters to back up my thought processes, I had ways to build something that could have made a difference. But life had other plans. My lack of “practical” experience meant I missed out on the limited jobs that were open, and then COVID hit which meant everything in my industry just stopped.
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I was so lucky I had a part-time job and that I was able to work from home, and throughout the last year my role has grown which is great, but it is far from what I want to be doing. So it’s like I am stuck in this in-between space of having a job and being grateful that I do, but trying to create and waiting for the opportunities to come up for what I actually want to be doing. In-between what should have been my past and my future.
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I feel like I am in such a different place that where I thought I would be. And it’s like I miss the person I thought I was going to be, the person who was hopeful and optimistic.
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I find it so interesting how we celebrate the new job or big promotion, moving out of home or buying your own, we celebrate those big life wins. But when it comes to what it takes to get to those wins, we rarely acknowledge or talk about it.
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So here I am acknowledging that I am stuck in the in-between and that it’s okay, and it’s okay if you are too.